Although my blog didn’t completely die and get reborn, it has been a few months since I posted so it almost feels like I’m starting over. Again. And I’ll apologize now for the rambling that’s about to happen. I have a lot of thoughts that I need to get out.
I knew back in February that my life was about to change. And it did. My mother-in-law moved in with us as she was transitioning from her life in California to a new home in Colorado. While I love her and there have definitely been many GOOD things about her living her, it has also been quite an adjustment. Our family routines have changed. Our eating habits have changed. Our day-to-day life is often unpredictable and we’ve had to be flexible in ways that we weren’t used to. Again, although this has had many good effects, it has also been somewhat stressful.
Stress is also something that just happens when you have three kids. Including a baby who doesn’t always want to nap. (Insert eyeroll and face palm emojis here.) Before Aren was born, I had a certain blog schedule that I liked to follow. Even when she was a newborn and she slept 20ish hours a day, I could write, take photos, post on instagram, optimize my SEO… But now? Now I’m lucky if I can take a shower each day. Some days I only have time to eat a banana for a meal — and even then I have to share it with her.
In February, I felt like I was losing control of my blog. It felt like too much work to think of a catchy title, sit down and write, check my visitors and pageviews. I was putting all of this pressure on myself, and it wasn’t good. I felt like I needed to take time away from my kids and family so I could get my “work” done.
I took some time to think about how I really wanted to spend my days. I wanted to be present with my kids. I wanted to get into a steady fitness routine and enjoy my daily workouts. I wanted to be happy and enjoy the time with my family. So I stopped blogging. I could have cut back to only blogging once a week, but I didn’t. I closed my computer and put it away. I took all of the pressure and expectations off of myself. I worked out, I cleaned my house when I had time, and I did fun things with my kids and husband. I realized what kinds of things made me happy, which in turn made me a better mom.
For the last couple of weeks, I’ve been thinking about my blog. I logged in a few times and looked at my previous posts, but logged back out. I thought about what I wanted to write about and how I could get back into blogging again, but didn’t know how to sit down and write. I also thought about going in a completely different direction and starting a lifestyle blog, but that just sounded insane. If I couldn’t even start back on THIS blog, how did I think I was going to start a different blog?
After talking with one of my blogger friends, I realized I didn’t have to have two blogs to be able to write what I wanted to. I don’t have to conform to any specific expectations at all. I can use this blog to write about anything I want. And my readers can choose to read certain topics, all topics, or no topics at all. I can share recipes, fitness ideas and tips, product reviews, family adventures, or whatever pops into my completely random head. Because my whole purpose for having this blog is to share things that my family does, to give people ideas, to be a real person who my readers can connect with. And I’m more than just fitness and clean eating and shakes. I’m a mom who wants to exercise and have a strong, fit body but eat pizza and tacos and goldfish crackers too. I like playing and having fun with my kids, but I also like drinking wine and watching Jeopardy. I LOVE taking photos, and I’ve really put a lot of time into it recently (as you can see by Aren’s instagram page). I love to shop, and I love supporting small shops even more, as shown through Aren’s extensive wardrobe.
I’m going to continue doing what I love, and I’m going to share it on here. You’ll still see fitness posts and recipes and healthy life tips. But you may also see some other things in my life that I just want to write about. If you decide to read it and want to leave me a comment or some feedback, I would love that. Just expect me to be real, honest, and open. I’d want the same from a friend. <3